"I live in quiet desperation every day of my life. Wishing that I could be rescued from this misery I call life. If feels like no one understands me. Not my family, not my friends, not anyone.
I feel like I am trapped in my life, and I can't break free. I have dreams and aspirations, and they all feel like they are ten thousand miles away. I just don't know what to do. I'm currently in a relationship that is far beneath what I deserve, but yet I can't live without him. And it doesn't really matter, because if it wasn't him, it would be someone else.
It's been that way my entire life. Giving all of myself to a man, and getting nothing in return. Giving my body, giving my time, and anything else that is asked of me. At the end of the relationship, when all of my sacrifice has gone unappreciated, I am left with another injury to my soul.
Same story... Different man... Who's Next!?! Who can draw me even further away from my God!?!
I just don't know what to do. However, I do know that I am tired of waiting by the phone to get a call, or a text from a man that I know doesn't deserve to be in my life. Obsessing over him, lying in the bed by myself at night wishing he was there. I can't live like this anymore, who am I kidding, this isn't life.
Please pray for me, I need help!! I want to live the life I was created to live. I don't want to settle any longer. I want to be strong again! I feel like close to nothing, like I am nothing. I have given so much of myself away, that I literally feel like I am nothing.
Thank you for opening your blog back up. I needed an outlet, and I am in desperate need of help."
Tired of Settling